Stubbornness and Lesson’s Learned

Posted: September 9, 2013 in Inspiration, Training Days
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Well no weekly recap this week. Mainly because there was nothing to recap.

I took the week off to let my back heal up, thinking all I had was a pulled muscle. So to make a long story short I have a Kidney, Bladder, and Prostate infection! Who knew!

So really if I had not been a stubborn male (and thinking I know best) and listened to my wife about going to the Doctor I would have been back to training a lot sooner. Now I am waiting for the antibiotics to kick in and kill the infection, and the moment the pains gone, I am running back to training!
This past week has been a challenge for me. I wanted to be training so bad, and I had to watch my training partners go out and get there swimming, cycling, and runs in while I had to sit at home. Yes jealous, but not upset with them. No honestly I was very proud of them continuing. They also were very encouraging to me. But none the less I was struggling. I had just started training, feeling really strong, getting the swimming technique down, and really progressing. But then the pain came and I knew I had to stop.
The thought of missing all those training days knowing that I would have to start pretty much all over was hard to accept. I realize that to most it doesn’t seem like a big deal, but when you work so hard and your so focused, and determined, to achieve something it’s hard to accept any kind of setback.
As the week went on it was getting harder and harder for me to just sit. I am a goal oriented person. If you know me at all sitting is not something I like to do. Also when I set goals it’s hard for me to be talked out of it, regardless of any circumstance. So as the week went on I was getting more and more frustrated because the pain wouldn’t go away, and began to get angry about it. Mainly because nothing ‘I’ was doing was working.
By the time Friday came I decided to let go of some pride and go to the Chiropractor (because at the time I had self diagnosed it as a pulled muscle). He did his thing, and afterwards I felt really good, but by Sunday morning it was back, with the constant feeling I needed to pee.
Then the realization that I was ‘wrong’ came. It wasn’t muscle, I had an infection. And because I chose to handle it myself, and not take the advice of my lovely wife, I was left to suffer until I could get in to see the doctor and get some antibiotics and pain killers. I hated the idea that because of my stubbornness I have to wait, sit and be patient again. Because my way was not the right way.
Patience is not the ability to wait but the ability to keep a good attitude while waiting.”
Joyce Meyer, Battlefield of the Mind
So I have to admit, all day Sunday I was really angry with myself. If I would have not been stubborn, and listened to others I could have been back to training a lot sooner. Also if I would have kept a better attitude and had patience then I would not have been as angry about my circumstances.
Now I am back to waiting a couple more days until I can start again.
Here’s a good quote for me:
“In the face of an obstacle which is impossible to overcome, stubbornness is stupid.”
– Simone de Beauvoir
I think I can relate to that quote!
Stubbornness can be a good thing sometimes, but when it comes to your health I have learned its not. As a progress through this journey I really am learning a lot about myself. And that’s what it’s about. I’m challenging myself not just psychically but mentally, and spiritually. And it’s exciting to see where it will lead me.
In life we are constantly faced with opportunities to learn. If we learn our lesson life seems to get a little bit easier. But if we choose to be stubborn, or refuse to see our weak areas then we are doomed to repeat the same mistakes.

When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with the humble is wisdom. Proverbs 11:2

I strive not to be caught in the trap of pride, selfishness and the “My way is the right way” attitudes.

So lesson learned.

Thrive2Tri and while you Tri listen to others, it’s a good thing!

photo credit: Blacknell via photopin cc

  1. Having a good attitude while waiting is SO hard sometimes. Hope you’re feeling better and back to physical training soon.

  2. Denise Robertson says:

    Very good post! I have that book written by Joyce Meyers….time for me
    to read it gain:)

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